In the latest edition of Esquire Magazine (on new stands now) talented thespian Christian Bale speaks about his early years as a child actor, “when he did fantasy movies and even sang and danced in a Disney musical called “Newsies.” Now he cringes at the words “child actor.”

BALE: I spent many years trying to pretend I wasn’t.

ESQUIRE: Why?

BALE: Because it’s embarrassing.

ESQUIRE: Why?

BALE: Well, it’s embarrassing to be a star. Most people look at you like, “That’s not a fucking job, is it?” And then on top of that, you learn very quickly that you’re just a tool — other people are manipulating everything you do, you’re at the mercy of editors, and there’s nothing you can do. But I learned that there’s a certain character that can be built from embarrassing yourself endlessly. If you can sit happy with embarrassment, there’s not much else that can really get to ya.

Click here to read the interview in it’s entirety.